DELETE MY CHANNEL?

Shall I continue researching and putting out new content? Is it even worth it? I love doing this but without your support, I’m done. I just can’t finance this channel from my own pocket because simply I don’t have the budget. For like 3 months I could not land a freelance gig - is it because they look up my name and don’t want to work with me? Shall I delete my channel so that I can get work? YouTube also makes the whole situation more difficult because they put a hard limit on my account so that I don’t get sufficiently new subscribers. What do you think I should do?